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Silence (W&W VS Jonas Stenberg) - Delerium Feat. Sarah McLachlan
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Relationships
Relationships these days are selfish. I don’t know what it is with the society, but it seems like in every relationship there’s always one of the two partners who controls it.
Relationships aren’t equal. It’s always about who pays the bills and who treats who better.
I wish I could be carefree about the world and just focus on being in love with my partner..
But unfortunately, I’m one of them.
You can pho me anytime.: Uneasily interested
It’s not easy to get me interested, and when I do, it doesn’t last long. I find it so hard for myself to trust another person because I’m so skeptical on other’s personalities and intentions.
I’m not afraid of getting hurt. I’m afraid of trusting somebody who doesn’t deserve to be trusted, and…
In Deep Mode
Sigh, I hate those nights when I’m alone and just think about everything at once.. It’s such a mind fuck.
I feel like a totally different person from what I was during the day.. Confident, optimistic, happy.. And now I just feel like shit..
I tend to feel so insecure in the middle of the night when I’m at home, alone on my bed.
Ugh, I hate this feeling more than anything.
Headaches from over thinking isn’t cool. I’ve noticed that whenever school is around, I’m either depressed, stressed, lonely or my anxiety level is at it’s highest. It frustrates me that a week ago, I was happy again, and it all came crashing down when winter break was over and school came back. I have no one to turn to for comfort, because no one knows how to deal. I’ve tried to tell myself to just fucking keep calm mentally but it never works.
My Message to You
You seem to not realize and appreciate what you have in your life. I’m a nice person, but I’m only human and I have a limit. So don’t take me for granted and expect me to be there for you forever.
Realizing that you’re not there for me and that you bring me down this way.. It hurts, and what hurts even more is knowing that I hate you this much and that you actually think I deserve to be treated this way.
You’re pathetic, and I now have the self-esteem to know that I’m better than you. So thank you for giving me the strength to not give a fuck anymore.
All I gotta say is that you’ll miss me when I’m gone. Deuces.
